OK...yesterday I was scheduled to go to my 'swim class' with others from the Tri-gym. All day I had been thinking about and worrying about and dreading going. It was cold outside! I am a bad swimmer! I'm not in shape! I was really feeling embarrassed. And not liking any of it. AND to top it all off, the class was way the heck out at some college campus in a rural setting and it was late at night! From 8:30-9:30. Which meant I wouldn't even get home til 10-ish. And lately I've been in bed, asleep by 10pm or earlier! Argh.....
Well...I got my sorry ass there with all my fears, worries, concerns and excuses in tow. And at first it was a total DRAG! But then something strange and wonderful happened.
I was NOT the fattest person in the pool...and nobody gave a shit anyway!
I was NOT the worst swimmer there at all...and again, nobody gave a shit!
One of the women in my "beginners" group (everyone that didn't make it last week...oops) said, "You should be over there in the fast lane." NOT! But it felt good to hear that.
And suddenly I was having FUN! A lot of fun! And yes, I still sucked. Yes, I still am a beginner (in my world, BAD) swimmer. Yes, I am still struggling to just breath and get my rhythm down. BUT I HAD A LOT OF FUN! Whenever our "coach" gave us another exercise or stroke or drill or challenge...I leaped to be first to do it.
When I finally got out of the pool, changed and on my way home...I was SO pumped up with energy that I couldn't sleep when I got home at 10:15pm. I ended up staying up watching the JOAN RIVERS documentary (which was/is amazing...talk about driven and never giving up) til after midnight. Of course, I slept in this morning and missed my 2-hours of biking/running...which I have to go now and make up...but it was FUN and I loved it and I can't wait to get back in the pool....which will be tomorrow with my swim coach for my next stroke analysis/lesson.
WHAT WINTER????
PS: I forgot to take my measurements on Wednesday for my weekly follow-up. I did weigh myself at the gym earlier yesterday and I am still 215lbs. Oh yeah, mid-day yesterday, I was passing the gym I use for swimming (Central Y) and I popped in for 15-minutes of swimming before last night's class...just to brush-up to reduce embarrassment. lol
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