I think I'm depressed...

Ok...I've lost track...I think it's now fully 2-weeks since I've done ANY workout/training of ANY kind. And I have gained most if not all my weight back. ARGH! I am so overwhelmed with work and I'm also feeling mostly like shit. My lower back hurts. My right arm hurts to raise. I have no energy. And I am feeling guiltier and guiltier by the day for not doing anything.

TWO WHOLE FRIGGING WEEKS!

Just got a text message from my personal trainer saying he's back and wondering when we are starting our workouts again.

I haven't heard anything from my tri-coach at all...perhaps she's just given up on me. She's still cashing my cheques.

I have no energy and I don't know if its...

- pain
- winter
- boredom
- depression
- stress/work
- all of the above

All I know is that I am gaining weight and losing ground and muscle...and I've got to turn this around soon....

Soo lazy...part two

OK...I have NOT worked out in over a week and a half and I feel absolutely no motivation to do so. I have also fallen completely off my diet and these two factors have pushed me back to almost my beginning weight. I weighed in yesterday at 215.6lbs. I am going to go weigh myself again now.

213.6 lbs

Miraculously it is down...but it's also super early in the morning and I haven't eaten. I don't remember when I weighed in yesterday. So it may not be a real comparison. BUT at least it is DOWN.

I am hoping I can motivate myself to go to the pool today. I kind of miss swimming most. I am also supposed to be running a half marathon this Sunday...but I haven't trained sufficiently and I haven't even run in 2 weeks.

YIKES...

What's it going to take for me to get over this slump? My 1/2 Ironman is quickly approaching.

Sooooo lazy....

OMG...it's been a week since I've worked out at all...nothing, nadda, zip, zilch!

I have been tired and depressed and achey and just plain unmotivated. Tonight is my swim class...so I am planning to go. I enjoy that the most...although the last class almost killed me.

Stay tuned!

My coach speaks...

My coach's comments after my successful 2km swim on Monday:

"Excellent.

You need to get on top of the runs and bikes or you won't be ready for the quickly approaching races - including 1/2 marathon, around the bay, and Arizona. If not started ASAP, it won't be safe to do the running races.

And, Arizona - we are biking on average 4-7 hours per day, you getting the bike volume in at this point is also imperative.

Deal?"

And I listen...

So many things...

OK...I've had a few days off blogging and several days on training.

So here's an update:

- Monday I swam, on my own, 2km per my training schedule!!!
- Tuesday I biked for 2hrs 20mins and then ran for 30 minutes!!!
- today I weighed in at 208lbs -- back down to where I was pre-"binge" day (Sunday)

Today I have a 50-minute run to do either inside or out...and since it's frigging cold out...I think it will be inside. :)

I got a warning the other day from my coach saying basically that I have to get back ontrack SERIOUSLY and train every day to the full extent of her training program or I won't be ready for my 1/2 marathon in 2-weeks and my 30km run at the end of March NOR for the 5-day intensive training camp in Arizona in April. She reminded me that they bike on average of 5-6hrs per day....plus....swim and run! In the desert!

OY...so off to run I go!!!

I'm pooped...

OK...Tuesday I got up at 3:30am and was on my bike training by 5:30am. I am so proud of myself. And then, to top it off, Cindy - my coach - pushed me from 2-hours to 2hrs 15mins on the bike at Zone Two followed by 30-minutes on the treadmill running at Zone Two...and I did it!!!

Only problem is/was, my butt hurt like never before AND all of yesterday and even somewhat today, my back/butt/legs hurt and I could barely walk!

ARGH...does this ever gett any easier.

So I missed yesterday's run training and tonight I have swim class. What to do???